Some truths.

I'm a busy girl. I work 40 hours a week at a mortgage company, 8 a.m.-5 p.m., then I come home from work and put in another 4-5, sometimes 5-7 hours more on editing, business planning, shooting, etc. I know everyone is busy. I have no room to think I'm the only one, and I truly know I'm not.  I'm starting to feel like I'm doing a mediocre job both at work and in photography because I'm constantly stressed about them both.  I often wonder how many summers I will have to sacrifice for this hobby-turned-business.  I passed on a family trip last weekend.  Just couldn't handle a vacation.  Weird right?  That vacations are stressing me out?!  What IS that?! 
Truth of the matter is, I stayed home to get work done, answer emails, and I even read some of a book I bought called The Legal Handbook for Portrait and Wedding Photographers (or something like that).  Photography has become all I think about, all I talk about . . . I'm pretty sure all of my friends and family are sick me thinking and talking only about that. 

To be quite honest, I miss blogging. Pre-photography (about 1.5 years ago), I was posting about trips, exciting events, my interests, my hobbies . . . this place was basically an online journal. This is not the case anymore. I miss that. I want to be better. I've LOVED making friends through my blog! I've loved reading other's blogs. And I miss commenting on other's blogs. I've come to the point where I now just scroll through Google Reader, quickly, when I have just a few moments, and many times I am Google-Reading from my phone while I'm in line at Starbucks (my saint and savior). I miss connecting with people. I want to say I'm making a goal to be better at this. I would LOVE to say that and have it be true. But for now, I will tell you I'm going to try my darndest.

This week, right in the middle of one of the busiest summers of my life, I caught a terrible cold. With so much editing to do that it makes me want to cry, I've told myself  "You will not do a good job on editing if you're feeling this terrible. Just take a break". So, I've done just that. I've still made it into work at the mortgage company (maybe I was late a few mornings, but I still made it in), but in the evenings, I've tried really hard to stay away from editing. Although, from my bed, I've managed to take care of quite a few business related tasks (I now officially own a business! Woot!), and did some location scouting last night . . . okay, so I'm terrible at taking it easy (you know what really sucks about colds?!  Right now, I'm drinking a triple venti latte from Starbucks (that's like a $4.50 drink!) and I can't even taste it.  It tastes like hot water.  My tastebuds are useless right now.  Boo :(  At least that doesn't affect the fact that I'm getting caffeine out of it, right?).

As far as shoots go, I've got quite a few photo shoots just waiting to be posted. But when I'm thinking about all that I have to edit, I think "Should I do a blog post? Or edit?", and then editing wins. Almost always. I know that posting shoots is the only way to drum up business, SO, I'm going to try and make blog posts just as important of a priority.


Anyway, I've got some fun, exciting, new things coming up in the next little bit, so stay tuned!
 
And one final "THANK YOU" to all those who still read my blog even though the occurence of posting has gone dramatically downhill!  I love you guys.  I will make it up to you.